Anxiety disorder Open Letter

Anxiety Disorder is a mental health disorder characterized by feelings of worry, anxiety or fear that are strong enough to interfere with one's daily activities


Dear Anxiety,

I’ve felt your presence throughout my life. I remember feeling you while I was alone. Anxiety, you always had a way of sneaking up on me and stealing my joy and peace of mind.
Anxiety, you’ve put me through a lot. It’s partially your fault I can’t trust people. Through all the struggles in my past, you were always there to whisper in my ear that nobody cares. Anxiety, I pushed a lot of people away because of that.  Because of you, I've hurt and lost people I cared and loved in my life.
Anxiety, I hate that you have so much power over me. it’s your fault that I'm fearful and hopeless in the vicious cycle you’ve trapped me in.
I can't stand your presence in my life anymore. You were ruining my life and ruthlessly sabotaging me as well as holding me hostage in my own mind.  While on the surface my life looked like mine, underneath it was controlled by you.
I'm sick of constantly worrying and thinking that I'm worthless and doesn't matter. You always bring your friends around, and they linger with me, and I think they just may take up permanent residency like you have. Depression, perfectionism and even your acquaintance stress come around. The depression that tells me none of it is worth it. The perfectionism that says I'll never measure up.  It’s time for me to take control. Your careless attempts to make me weaker are no longer going to debilitate me. I control the reigns over my mind and my life.

Sorry Anxiety, but this train is leaving and you don’t have a ticket. Even if you sneak into my luggage for the rest of my life, so be it. I’m not going to let you ruin the fun for me anymore. This fight will end in my victory. You no longer have any power over me. More than anything, I’m free. You no longer define me. You no longer control me. You no longer have any power over me. Yes, I am free.

Sincerely, 
Free